angel of an ass dress

I desperately need this dress.

I am in love with this Herve Leger dress and her bottom isn't bad either!

I don't think i could pull it off like her but who cares i need it i have to have it!!

wishing well

There are a few things i have my eyes on. I love to cut out images that inspire me or pieces that i want to buy and i scrapbook it. I guess it makes me feel that my magazine addiction is ok because they don't all go to the recycling bin. I have written some random things that are on my wishlist below.

♥ My current wishilist ♥

Ksubi maxi cross dress

Claud Maus black threaded knit

Chanel ballet flats

Camilla canary yellow/turqouise kaftan

Museum fushia silkbow dress

Sass & Bide infinite wisdom swing dress

Tiffany diary

Tiffany box

Rose goblets to hang earrings on

O.P.I alpine snow and thrill of brazil

MAC slimshine in funshine

More random wrist junk

Preen sunglasses worn in their show

A Personal Trainer!!

(I think i need to win the lottery)

♥

Also booked my tatt in for the 11th. My bestbud Sare gave me this tatt my birthday. This will be my fifth. Wonder if it's my last? I have so many ideas i would love to get drawn up but i worry how i will feel on them in the future. I have love hate relations with mine at times.

house of harlow

House of Harlow - Nicole's new jewellery range. You can see some of her stuff on kitson.

blue jean girl

I am loving the cut off jeans look. Although i have been doing it for a few years now, every summer i can't help but return to this 'look' ahhh i am a cut off addict. My fellow hippy-at-heart Nicole Richie (I love love love this girls style post Rachel Zoe) rocks this trend and is continually in my inspirational look-book.

I am also loving the boyfriend jean not just because of recent weight gain but also for comfort. It is a comfortable, forgiving and different approach to jean wearing than the not so forgiving high waist and skinny variety. I love the androgynous look of a boy jean and AA deep V tee, or really anything with an AA deep V. So original i know but it is easier on the bank balance than my love of Bassike, LnA, Nathan Smith and S&B tee's.

Ooooh which brings me to my other love/obsession/wear to deathing. My S&B 'crackerjac' cargo's are the comfiest, coolest lazy day wear with a tee and haviana day make ever! i have seriously worn them 4 days of the week. Yes to a weight gained hippy who is a torn jean, boyfriend jean, cut-off jean and cargo wearing sloth of late.

Oh and also Nicole i love my Ray Ban aviators too. Can we be friends now? :P

Influence by the Olsens

The skirt i wore on Saturday night :(

JMS has my heart forever x

I ordered Influence by Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen and picked it up today weeeeee! I flicked through all the amazing pics as soon as i got home. The Olsens still remain very private and do not indulge too much. A coffee table book filled with a lot of artists, photographers and designers that inspire them and a few interview, questionaire type things the girls have filled out, again i have only skimmed through it so far and to be honest i just purchased it because it was MK&A. and a look in to what i find two of the more intriguing celebs of our day. However the creativity and depth of the book so far has by far exceeded expectations. I think i might actually learn something.
I took a pic of the beautiful book alongside my pretty pup Kiki. Isn't she just the cutest. LOVE x

without her groom...

So today is supposed to be Jeremy and my wedding day.
My beautiful precious soul has been gone for 14 months and 12 days.

It is getting easier but harder in so many ways. I feel so alone, even though i have been working hard to gain a life worth living again. I am finding some happiness but whenever i think of him i know how much happier life would be. Not a day goes past where i don't think of Jeremy and how i could have saved him but the reality is you can't change realities stupid consequences.

arghhhhhh.

My two beautiful besties who have stuck by me through it all are taking me out tonight. Although i was going to be in white(the most sensational dress ever) i will now be in black on my wedding day. Wearing what i wore to my man's funeral instead. Yes slightly morbid and dark but this day is. I am the bride and i can cry if i want to. Wearing black tutu's with my bridesmaids, with a constant supply of cocktails and music, celebrate what is reality. Past is gone. Present is nasty. Tomorrow will be better.